While my business Beyoutiful Intuition is new, my interest in tarot, oracle cards, divination, astrology and spirituality is not! I grew up thinking that meditation, tarot, crystals, figuring out what color your aura was and trusting the vibes you get from people and places were totally normal. I’m not saying all of that is super weird, but I learned pretty quickly that none of my other friends were doing those things when we were kids.
I remember the weird looks I got from a friend during a school spelling bee in elementary school when I closed my eyes and meditated before it was my turn. She looked at me like I was crazy, but I didn’t think I was. That was just my way of calming down and clearing my mind, and I’m grateful to have learned about it so early in life.
Whether it was strange or not, I was just used to talking about and being around tarot, astrology, crystals, etc. In fact, when I threw a Halloween party my sophomore year of high school (and dressed up as Sandy from the end of Grease, obvi), she even did free readings for me and my friends. I felt like the coolest person in the world because no one else I knew was doing that at parties.
During the rest of high school and then college, I eventually pulled away from the spiritually inquisitive side of myself, but I kept feeling the calling to pick it up again. I chose to ignore all of that for several years, even though I could feel that my intuition was growing.
Eventually, a lot of things went really far off course from what I had thought and planned to happen. Both of my grandpas passed away within a year of each other. I worked at a lot of soul-sucking jobs. I had been let go from two full-time jobs in a row. I got married, and my husband and I moved into his late aunt’s house to live with his mother. There was a lot of very epic change that happened very quickly in my life, most of which I didn’t want to happen, and I started to feel really, really lost, confused, disappointed and lonely.
I then unintentionally embarked on a very intense journey of self-love and self-discovery. I say unintentionally because I wasn’t consciously doing it but it was still happening. I started journaling a lot, practically devouring a book a day at times and sharing more of my thoughts and my life on my blog. It was scary as hell, but being open, honest and vulnerable during all of this pain and heartbreak honestly changed my life.
Then I started feeling nudges and seeing signs from the Universe about going back to my roots and exploring spirituality and tarot and all of that again. After ignoring it for so many years, I was skeptical but still open enough to read and research and reflect on it all.
For my 27th birthday, my mom bought me my first tarot deck, and that’s when my own tarot journey officially began.
I dove head first into podcasts and books to learn as much as I could, but (shockingly) I got really overwhelmed and decided to take a break from all of this again.
And then, surprise surprise, more nudges and signs started popping up in my life again, so I bought some oracle decks and started learning more about them. My deck collection kept slowly growing, and now I have more than a dozen tarot and oracle decks.
I was even a witch for Halloween in 2019, and I finally didn’t mean it ironically.
I started doing daily readings for myself with the cards and reaching out to different readers on Instagram to make more connections. After several months of doing that, I branched out and started doing readings for some friends who were also card readers. After a particular reading with one friend that really struck a chord with her, she planted the idea in my head by saying “You need to be charging for these readings!”
I scoffed at the idea. After all, I was just doing it for fun and to learn more about myself. But now that the idea was there, I couldn’t get it out of my head. I tried to ignore it, but I kept finding myself wanting to do readings for others to help them get the guidance and clarity that I was getting myself.
So then I somewhat impulsively decided to take the leap into small business ownership, and I scheduled a meeting with a local business center. I met up with them on Monday, Dec. 6. On Tuesday, I submitted my business for approval online with North Dakota’s Secretary of State. On Wednesday, my business was approved, and I was officially a small business owner of Beyoutiful Intuition.
The fact that everything was happening so quickly definitely seemed like a sign that I was on the right path. Even though it’s been a scary and frightening and nerve-wracking journey at times, I’m so incredibly grateful for how I got here.
And now? I have no idea what the future holds, but I’m so damn excited to be on this adventure. I’m diving in head first with my intuition and the Universe by my side.
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